Dr3amzz

Empty

2010-03-17T15:59:00.001-07:00

Sitting here in this room
Where everyone is deep in slumber
I have this feeling
Something I have been battling with

There is this emptiness within me
An emptiness only One can fill
Yet I hesitate so much to reach out
To the One who heals

My spirit yearns to stop
But my flesh pulls me back
It's not that I don't want to
I'm finding it difficult to

The love that I have
Is above all the love in the world
Yet I search for a love
That will never last

Why does it has to be me?
Most of me wants this to stop
But a part of me wishes otherwise
What should I do, I don't know!

Empty

2010-03-17T15:59:00.000-07:00

Unified

2009-02-19T18:53:00.000-08:00

was feeling really uneasy all day yesterday...
was looking for events to happen
went to bed at 11 pm and slept till 2 am ... still nothing happened except some amazing dreams...
funny, to me my dreams are always so real sometimes i feel that my dreams are my reality and these waking moments are in fact my dreams...

but how can i support that when many times my dreams do not relate to each other...

i unify.

i unify my dreams and my waking moments.
my dreams are messages from my subconcious mind while i am resting my concious. Bringing out the messages i would have usually missed out on.
and my concious mind puts these messages into actions or remedy the next waking day.

unify.

thus, i unify my concious and my subconcious mind for my unified reality. making it whole. making it full.

i dreamt in my dream that i was awake yet i know i was dreaming but i wasn't sure. then i looked out of my window in my dream to see two men shouting on the streets ...

'what do i do? i don't know what is real and what is not?'

hence, i wake thinking. this is indeed a problem.

but then the next day, i woke up and read a text recieved during the night. my friend told me that he has thought of the name for his tuition centre which he has been wanting to open all this while. 'Unify'!!!

We have been searching for a suitable name for a very long time.

was it not then my subconcious mind's questioning answered in my concious world?

is that not a unification indeed?

i wish all religions, cultures, people be unified someday or perhaps that is a bit far fetched and idealistic?

Well, At least,

may i then wish that every one's heart be unified one day...

unify... Be Unified.

the clock

2009-02-19T18:47:00.001-08:00

tick tock tick tock...

the time is ticking away
but what have i done?

does it matter,
does it count?

in what matter and in what ounce?

the clock that makes us measure our worth.

so what if i hadn't done enough?
so what if i want to do more?
if i weren't doing it NOW
does it count?

so count not what i had done
or what i was to do
but what i do now

for i live in the now beyond time beyond space
yet amongst time and space, i create and fulfill.

cliche.

2008-09-23T07:25:00.000-07:00

Life's a cliche.
Many a times we took things for granted,
Cherishing only we start to lose it.
We may be sad, we may whine.
We may do things we've never done before....
But after these periods, we still have to face the reality.
Time doesn't stop for one individual.
Time doesn't hasten for one individual.
But to realise our mistakes and never to commit it again, its up to us individually.
Currently working hard for my dream, whatever setbacks there will be, i only said "Lets try harder next time" GOGOGO.

This life, this life we are leading. Is it really ours?
More often than not, we derailed from what we want in life because of some simple comments. Comments like "you can't do this, this is not for you,etc"
Think again, we are literally leading a life that others think we can. Limiting ourselves within their narrow vision, changing yourself because of someone.So maybe its time we start finding back what's our own purpose in life and that when we can say 'YES, this is my life story'

As we go on, we remember all the times we had together ,and as our lives change come whatever, we will still be friends forever.
Time flies, leaving only trails of memories. Looking back in our life, we realise there are some things we could have done but didn't. When we are old, we DO NOT regret on the things we have done, but instead, we regret on thing that we DIDN't DO.
So friends, look in our present life, maybe its time we untie our knots

stop, breathe.

2008-09-14T06:18:00.000-07:00

running running running
always running

nothing wrong with running
but we forget to appreciate the breathing
that kept us running

breathe is what keep us alive

running and moving help us to get somewhere

there?

there is no there?

just somewhere.

so don't get lost in running

stop. breathe
appreciate the miracle that is not to be reached
but that already exists

existence of the self

2008-09-03T22:11:00.000-07:00

why do we have partners?
why do we want a car?
why do we want a big house?
why do we wear expensive clothes?

partners are the tool to the realisation of the self.

when we have someone touching us
we feel good.
but more than feeling good we actually feel ourselves.

how often have you stood infront of the mirror and think,
'is this really me?'

we need to feel our existence
we need to feel we are real

hence we buy a car
excuse being
'i like it' but ever asked why you like it?

or being i need it from point A to point B
get a bus, take the public transport
we need our own space
our excuse is,
'i hate public transport!'

but come on face it Patrick, it's an extension of you,
of your freedom, your security, your ego.

and i admit it is.

we need to feel that we exist
some have more need to do that than others

but realise that no matter how strong your extending fortress is,
you are only YOU!

so build on the inside for a real existence
build within yourself the belief
the strength
the courage

face the existence of the self from the inside
then all your extension on the outside will become real.

'the physical gets old
the spiritual just grows...'

fishing

2008-08-28T20:43:00.000-07:00

how i come out with these titles
i don't know

but feeling very encouraged when i get comments from people i dun know
encouraging me
supporting me
its a real blessing and encouragement

maybe fishing came from me thinking about fishing for praises
fishing for encouragement
support
good wishes?

but hey dun we just sit and fish and pray for a good catch?
well isn't the best part of fishing in the waiting and the chatting and the anticipation?

enjoy the fishing dun fish for the fish, but for yourselves...
the fish is only a bonus!

water

2008-08-26T21:23:00.000-07:00

emotions running through the fingers
through the touch

why do we feel with our fingers
yet we tell someone to feel with the heart

the fingers types the fingers plays the fingers feel
yet we touch with the hearts

isnt life an irony
words, irony

how do you feel?
with your fingers and your heart?

why do we contradict what we say with how we feel
is it to protect or to harm?

when we protect ourselves
do we hurt others?

when we hurt others
are we really protecting ourselves...

feel with your heart
touch with your touch

for the truth is within that cannot be touched

running waters
touch
and feel

blue

2008-08-25T06:55:00.000-07:00

blue
the time for actions
the time to do

what can i do if i havent got red
the kundalini
the life force within

actions seem weightless
the world seems light

the fire is burning
but wherefore
what of

i keep searching
and found nothing
but the haze

am i too slow?
am i too stuborn?
or simply too lazy?

too distracted perhaps
by the fanciful things around me

trying to see
trying to hear
trying to learn

but never listening to what is within

heard but not listening

calm the mind
calm the soul
perhaps someday
i will learn to feel the right thing to do

blue blue i beseech you to move forward and red do come from within...

Without me...

2008-05-16T20:33:00.000-07:00

As far as i try not to assume
but i feel
and see
day by day
we're drifting away
how u say
dat i'm assuming
but i think
u realize you're avoiding
how much i
try
and try
to have you here
but i think you
gave enough hints
that you don't need me
i've become nothing to you

Guess you'll be fine
real fine
without me..

awaken

2008-03-18T07:45:00.001-07:00

walking, sleeping, working
all for a living

staying still, waking, thinking
all for a life

living a life for a life worth living

what is worthy for me may not be worthy for you

why lay your worth in what i do
or let what i worth affect what you do

let your worth be yours
and mine be my

for then we all find our self worth
which when put together
becomes THE awakened worthiness

for one is never complete
for all is never too if all is seperate

awake awake
for all our awakening is needed to fulfill THE worth

be awaken when you read
be awaken when you see
be awaken when you hear
be awaken when you speak

for your speech then contribute to the other's worth and awakening

i write in riddles
i write in rhymes

there is no meaning
there is no find

but what is taken is in your mind

why god?...

2008-02-24T06:04:00.000-08:00

why god?
why do you always give me something so good and then take it away from me?
do i not deserve goodness or do you not want me to see how the goodness would turn bad and i be even more disappointed?
i question myself
maybe i dun deserve it
maybe they shouldnt have been presented to me at all
is the the hard way for me to learn detachment?
if attachment is such a suffering
why make me feel?
why give them to me and take them away from me?
will there be one you ll allow me to keep and blossom with?
maybe someday i will prove myself worthy of the one
maybe someday you will answer me why...
but with faith and trust i believe all you do is good
and all is yet to come and yet to go
all is already here
and all is gone...
is that why, god?

others

2008-01-28T02:40:00.001-08:00

many times when i have followed others
when i have watched others
but what do i want
i am confused
what do i want i am misleaded

god greatness of the universe do guide me and show me wisdom with the purest of hearts
so that i may find truth and not be distracted and guided by ego and physical pleasures

so many times i looked and succumbed to the the flesh and listen to the bodily needs...

why is beauty and innocence so easily overlooked and taken advantage of?

why is sincerity and truthfuless so often abused?

the wickness of the heart is but the misleded
of greed and want

the fear of not having

the fear of desertment

the fear of unforgiving...

if we only realized that life is of abundance and practice faith and believe
then we would have a blissful life...

clouded mirror cracked windows

2007-10-10T20:00:00.000-07:00

passion like fire
love clouded by desire

looking through a cracked window
into a clouded mirror

life seems lifeless
and heart beating without a beat

waking to a life of sleeplessness

bleeding is less painful
cutting through the heart with a razor blade and yet feel not pain

have i been numbed for a good reason
or just too painful to register

or simply too numb
too numb to hate for all is filled with love

perhaps someday i will know the answer

but for now as the saying goes...
time heals everything

why is...
pain such a beautiful thing
and sadness filled with beauty

loving while in pain is the ultimate test

why such profoundness in the late night hours
or shall i call it the early morning

time is a such a strange concept
love even more so
hatred exists not in the pain nor the in the heart
just filled with love yet love being so beautiful is also painful
but love is such

shall i defend myself or shall i love

am i lonely or am i scared

why cant i just know the answer
when i am with me all the time

clouded mirror
cracked windows

distorted messages

2007-09-30T19:47:00.000-07:00

Been a long time, since i smelled this page...

on my way back home from somewhere yesterday night
i had a distorted idea that life is but burdened by us wanting to be someone
or to achieve something...

nothing wrong with that...

we will get what we ask for... its just a matter of time and how they will arrive

but things come with a reason and a price.

are we ready to pay for the price?

what is the reason we want it?

then it spoke to me...

it said,

ask for nothing and seek nothing for you have already everything.

let me decide and give you what is best for you... what you are most ready for now.

but if you choose to decide i shall oblidge.

but i will therefore not be answerable for your outcome.

well said. point taken.

how would i know what is best for me?

the hidden forces are always hidden

people always say they do not exist.

but that is why they are called the hidden forces.

anyway, my conclusion is therefore ask for nothing and seek nothing
but listen to the rythm of life

the pulsation in me leading me
guiding me
telling me

aspire not
but be inspired

seek not
but be looked after

ask not
but to listen

the knowing is in you...

TOLD YOU IT WAS RANDOM AND DISTORTED....

but... did it make sense?

Reasons to live...?

2007-09-07T20:19:00.000-07:00

how should i know?

i was born and therefore i live.

i live and therefore i die.

a journey started alone, and to end alone.

travelling with many to realise that we are after all...

one.

why search so hard?

why look so far?

why not stop to see and realise we are not so far?

always searching, always looking, but shame, what a shame that we are seldom seeing.

reasons to live

reasons we give

reasons are all we ever give

there is no reason

there need no giving

but there is all for us to live.

2007-09-04T09:03:00.000-07:00

Promos are coming and I am regretting why i didn't start revising earlier.. I really pray that i make through this year... Well today was a nice.. I was studying in the morning and went for GAP meeting... Its also known as the MI prayer group... Well we really had alot of fun.. Playing games and oh yeah i brought James, My drama dude.. I really feel so good to bring a friend today.. I dunno if he did enjoyed the whole meeting but i hope he did... "God Help James in in whatever he does and let him know that even if the whole walks out on him, you will always stand by his side... As how you proved to me that no one can be like you, show yourself to him"

We went out after that and had alot fun... I got to know this dude from Germany and he is really nice guy but the sad part is, he has to go back to Germany this week.. If just i knew him a little earlier.. Anyway, i will be bringing him to HAW PAR VILLA.. I have never gone there before so yeah guess i will be learning something with him.. Ok i gotta go and sleep... I am like really tired... Take peeps, Love you all and Jesus loves you all too...

Fragile....

2007-08-30T09:19:00.000-07:00

Today... I heard the news that my Friend passed away... He went up to his flat and jumped... I dunno why... I spoke to him last week for the first time... WE have always said or HI to each other but the first we sat down and talked some life issues.... I didn't know that he was facing such a terrible time.. I could have done something to help but i didn't... Sadly he is gone... He was such a joker.. Making stupid remarks making people laugh all the time... He had the courage to jump from a flat...Why didn't he have the courage to live on... ALSON.. You will be missed by alot of people... I can't accept the fact that you are gone... But you will live on in my heart forever... I will always remember that once, a dude named Alson made me laugh..

WE Humans are so precious.... So precious that we can't take pressure... It just needs one jump to end our life... we are so Fragile...

The Winner,The Dreamer

2007-08-27T19:17:00.000-07:00

The loser is always part of the problem.

The winner is always part of the answer.

The loser always has an excuse.

The winner always has a program.

The loser says, "That is not my job."

The winner says, "Let me do it for you."

The loser sees a problem to every answer.

The winner sees an answer to every problem.

The loser sees a sand trop near every green.

The winner sees a green near every sand trap.

The loser says it may be possiblt but it is too difficult.

The winner says it may be difficut but it is possible.

Life...

2007-08-26T07:52:00.000-07:00

Its been quite a long time since i blogged normally.. Or maybe this is abnormall...AHHH whatever... Anyway alot happened this week...

Arts Festival was really demanding... Staying back in school to rehearse everyday was practially madness.. But nevertheless it was fun.. My fellow actors was awesome.. Having alot of fun with them and gay moments...LOL..And finally when the day came... I gave it my best shot and man.. I was impressed with my self... I did pretty well.. I almost cried while acting the character that i played...

That madness is over and now time to mug for my promos... Seriously... I am dying... I have got so much to do yet so little time...

-your guardian angel-

2007-08-24T19:23:00.000-07:00

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can’t replace
And now that I’m stronger I’ve figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I’ll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It’s ok. It’s ok. It’s ok.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I’ll be the one

I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you’re my, you’re my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don’t throw that away
Cuz I’m here for you
Please don’t walk away,
Please tell me you’ll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I’ll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

an empty bird cage

2007-08-20T07:00:00.000-07:00

a little heart beating so fast
while a minute ago it was just as normal as any other day.
the cat pounced on me
and brought me down to the ground.
i was this little bird
full of pride...
proud
of my ability to take flight
of my ability to escape from those vicious paws and curious minds...
but it was my carelessness
that took my pride.
i struggled through the attack
she was like a block of skyscrapper ripping at me in all directions
i struggled
i failed
i gave in to fate...
but came a lady screaming and taking me away from my harm
but it was too late
my little heart has bled
but yet not to be seen.
for the last night of my very short life
i sat in a luxurious cage she had
yet he took me to another place
i listened as the world goes by
for the last time
i slept and in the morning
i struggled to stay awake till he came with a worm in his hand
'good morning' i heard him say
but before i could say 'goodbye',
i choked on my last breath and went away.

why i learn to fly

2007-08-10T20:56:00.001-07:00

when i fly
i see not one in view
when i dive
i lose myself in view

but when i stop to look
i see all things in view

they soar, they dive,
they wonder why
yet only i can understand

thus i just stop to view
and through viewing i then learn

it's not how you move
it's not what you see
it's how you learn to
move when you are still

and how you soar
and how you dive
and how to understand
your view.

so now i sit to learn
to view
to understand the lessons
in my view

i soar, i dive, i wonder why
yet i am still sitting still

it'llcome one day
when i shall understand
when i return
to fly

i shall fly
with wings opened wide
yet understand
why
i shall soar
why
i shall dive
why
why
why
have i come to understand all things in view.

Love

2007-08-09T05:59:00.000-07:00

What is LOVE?

Love is my mom and my dad married for 26 years. Love is when I gave everything i've got without never asking anything in return. Love is when my dad hit the hell out of me trying to correct me. Love is a fact not fiction. Love is love. Love breaks all barriers. Love makes everything possible. My friends are my family. THAT is LOVE. Love is when grandpa and granny walk down the streets holding hands. Love is when a boy and a girl dress up and go out just to smell each other. Love is giving your french fries to that speical somone without wanting any of theirs. When that special someone calls your name, you know that your name is safe in their mouth, thats love. Love is walking into someone's life when everybody has walked out. Love is when u realise when there is no one to hold u tight, there is me. Love is when u make time for sacrifices. Love is what the world began with and what will bring the world to an end....

Give all the love you have got, before its too late.

Love....

Monkey See, Monkey Do

2007-08-06T19:24:00.000-07:00

i see i do
you see you do

why do we imitate those who succeed
and find it so hard to be where they are?

that is because those who got there
went there their own way

we try and try
but they just dared!

we are so afraid to be our own leaders
to make up our own mind
to make our own decisions

hence, we are followers

its so much safer to follow
and try to be where they were
and when we dun get there
we say, 'life's not fair!'

on the contrary,
life is fair!

they got there because they dared
they got there because they created their dreams

therefore be daring
be brave
be yourself

create your own dream/s
follow your heart
listen to your little voice

dun just monkey see monkey do
you get me?

Future...

2007-08-06T05:27:00.000-07:00

future is always in the future
if you worry about the future
you have missed the present

it's easy to forget that we live in the present

NOW.

in the past..
we have achieved
we have failed
we have recieved
we have given

in the future we might
recieved, give, achieve, fail

but if we dun live in the NOW
we are as good as dead

as good as a thought till we are in the present future

but we so often run ahead of ourselves
that we never change up with ourselves
hence never at the future
always in fear of the uncertainty of the future!

we forget how we looked when we were twelve
without the reminder of a photo

live the moment by the moment
treasure each and every breath

for without just one we discontinue our existence
be thoughtful of our
every move
every word
every thought

send out your wishes
believe

let your future come to you
let the promise be fulfilled
dun sabotage yourself...

Peace from within

2007-08-05T05:12:00.000-07:00

why do i always feel like i could be more interesting
why is it that other people's lives always seem more interesting than ours

maybe it's because we believe that we dun deserve

we dun deserve to be rich, to be healthy, to be happy...

how often do we look down on ourselves?

i sit here infront of the window looking out
at the forest of high rise flats in singapore
feeling caged in by the window grills...

i am trapped
i dun deserve to be free
i dun deserve to think
i dun deserve to speak...

then i looked up at the sky

it says to me

you deserve as all of us do
what i have
you have
what i can attain
you can

then i closed my eyes
felt my skin grew into the air
collided and merged

i felt the trees in me

i felt i deserve

i felt peace

i felt chaos

i felt whole

then there was no fear

just ME!

I wanna be 'your' rain...

2007-08-02T07:46:00.000-07:00

The rain rain rain...
It's not enough to be the one who holds you
It's not enough to be the one your close to
I want to be so much more
The love that your living for
The air you breath
I wanna be everything that touches you everything

I wanna be the rain that falls on you
Washes away the pain
I wanna be the sun that shines on you
Warms your world each day
I wanna be the sky that holds the stars for you
So you never lose your way
I wanna be the wind that kisses your face
I wanna be the rain
It's not enough for me to be around you
I wanna be everything that surrounds you
The sun to light up on your skin
Each breath that your breathing in
Or that you need
I wanna be everything that touches you everything

I wanna be the rain that falls on you
Washes away the painI wanna be the sun that shines on you
Warms your world each day
I wanna be the sky that holds the stars for you
So you never lose your way
I wanna be the wind that kisses your face
I wanna be the rain
And even in your sleep when your dreaming
I wanna be the only thing you see won't you be there in everything

I wanna be the rain that falls on you
Washes away the pain
I wanna be the sun that shines on you
Warms your world each day
I wanna be the sky that holds the stars for you
So you never lose your way
I wanna be the wind that kisses your face
I wanna be the rain I wanna be the... rain
Rain... The Rain

I DO...

thinking water

2007-07-29T03:36:00.000-07:00

water flowing
in the stream
down the river
to the sea

from the sky
came the vapour
pouring down
through its sleeves

circling of water
seem so deemed
but who decides
and who to please

where fore comes it
where for goes

thinking water or
thinking soul

just live it

2007-07-18T22:05:00.000-07:00

many months in a strange land has taken me into empty unfamiliar situations
life has taught me to stop thinking
but just live it experience it and observe it

why did i always ponder about the future? worry about what it may bring?

the future will always be the future
the past is gone...
so why did i always worry about the future and missing the past?

if i planted the seed in the present and cared for it's growth with love and passion then the results will come...

even if the results weren't what i thought it to be at least i have enjoyed my present life ... which is NOW... NOW... NOW... NOW... NOW...

i am so glad to learn to just live life....

shadows

2007-07-18T08:17:00.001-07:00

shadows cast upon a brick wall
cast upon a tree
cast upon a broken front

are but shadows

they have no emotions
no life

like shadows,
our past and future are but a projection within the time scale

it can get distorted on different surfaces

but we are the key to the shadows and we have the choice to be where we want to cast it

so choose how you want to cast your shadows

there is no good or bad
just a projection

a beautiful shadow or not lies in the heart of the beholder

irony

2007-07-17T08:46:00.000-07:00

it has been a very rewarding yet a very upsetting day for me...
how could it be right?
what irony... yet irony exists for a good reason i have just realized today...
it makes you see both sides of the story and thus making it full and beautiful.

i have learned about confidence.
confidence is strength gained through practice...says he.
yet faith is confidence before practice...
it's the ultimate knowing.

i realized that whatever strength or knowledge you know or prossess
it is meaningless if others are not there to appreciate.
there is only so much you can do for yourself
and much more needs approval from others as of universe.

like a universe has no reason for existence
if it does not stand the test of human destruction
for a greater understanding of it powers

it is thus not an arrogance but a test of faith.

yet knowing that you have no control of all yet you createall...
that is the beauty of creation
that is the beauty of faith
that is beautiful
that is irony

does it make you think why?

2007-07-15T05:00:00.000-07:00

doesn't it make you think why good things always come to an end?
doesn't it make you feel relieve that bad things have ended?
isn't it better just not to feel?
or is it better to feel everything?
do we wanna get hurt?
or do we wanna forget everything?
doesn't it make you think what is the best way to be?
to experience life to its fullest?
or to live it untouched?
doesn't it make you think why we exist?
doesn't it make you think why we are the way we are?

stop. be still. feel.

just feel...

...let the answer come to you.

it will...

enough is enough

2007-07-09T07:52:00.001-07:00

ok.

reading back on my posts i realized that i have been writing about now for weeks now!!!

maybe i am trying to remind myself here not to forget it.

is there ever enough times to remind myself its enough?

well, i hope i finally live it enough to know that enough is enough.

blah blah blah...

be like a child?

2007-07-09T07:12:00.000-07:00

why is it that when we were kids
knowing that it is too far to jump across
too high to jump from yet
we take the leap

but as we age
we worry
we worry if we are gonna hurt ourselves
we worry that if we would succeed

but isnt the thrill in the roller coaster ride and not the end of it?

we just have to enjoy the ride while on it and not think back and see if it was a good one

so many doors are opened to us
yet we let them bypass
fearing that the door might close behind us

but if we don't enter
how would we know if we were in the right door after all

and if it wasn't
at least we have experienced more of life
making us wiser and it fuller

i choose to live life to the fullest
hence i take what we call risks
and children call life.

maybe we should let the child in us come out and conquer our fears.

fear or losing, fear of not attaining, fear of regrets...

COME... play with me.

Precious moment

2007-07-08T04:02:00.000-07:00

this moment or that?
what is your most precious moment?

we are always asked

what is your most memorable moment?
what is the funniest moment in your life?
what is the saddest...
what is the happiest...
what is ...

how about precious?
what is the most precious moment in your life?

for me... this is. this is and this is....etc...

i keep getting distracted by what people have, what people expect and what people want, which in turn make make me want to have, make me expect, make me want...

my mind racing ahead of me wanting and expecting...
like a bondage from the material world.
like a bondage from the darkened mind.

and when i got what i wanted.
i was not happy.
but wanted more!

then i sit and contemplate.
i sit and listen.
i sit and be.
i. be.

then i feel alive again.
or this (this...this...this...this...)
precious moment have made me whole...

reflection

2007-07-06T08:50:00.000-07:00

the moon shines not of its own source
but reflects relentlessly the brillance of the sun
little did he know he is so admired for being him
and the sun faithfully shares her with us by hiding behind the earth

what a relationship between him and her
that gives us the variety of day and night
and of knowing and feeling

the moon reflects his rays
showing his power and displaying her beauty

often we take advantage of their efforts
and forget to reflect on its purpose

next time you see the sun
be gratified for she gives us life
and the moon
that he reminds us to reflect

Kiss Me

2007-07-05T00:43:00.001-07:00

kiss me, out of the bearded barley
nightly, beside the green green grass
swing swing swing the spinning step
you wear those shoes and I will wear that dress

oh kiss me, under the milky twilight
lead me out on the moonlit floor
lift your open hand, strike up the band,
and make the fireflies dance
silver moon's sparkling, so kiss me

kiss me, down by the broken treehouse
swing me up on its hanging tire
bring bring bring your flowered hat
we'll take the trail marked down your father's map

oh kiss me, under the milky twilight
lead me out on the moonlit floor
lift your open hand, strike up the band,
and make the fireflies dance
silver moon's sparkling, so kiss me

journeying within

2007-07-04T06:14:00.000-07:00

manys months have passed... many journeys taken.
now i am back to my confused state.
finding what i have forgotten or put away about myself.

the journey is hard.
the journey is complicated.

from outside we go in to the within
and from within we shine outwards.

my mind reflects my world and my world reflects my mind.

why such theories are so easy to understand yet so difficult to practice?

my journey within started in 2005
in a wayward direction
why now it seems like it is going in many more ways?
am i distracted? am i exploring my possibilities?

the journey within is a parallel to the journey outwards...
does it then mean i am unsure of my mind? or unsure of my world?

i pray i am moving in the desired direction.

why is it so hard to see when there is someone else involved and so lonely when there is not?

i journey
i journey
i journey
within...

a journey within can only be journeyed alone...

less and more

2007-07-01T22:09:00.000-07:00

less and more come together
we realise that we learn less as we learn more
less in comparison to the whole
and the whole seems to get bigger and bigger
and it now seems like an endless pit
we keep trying to see the end
but realized we cant
we keep trying to trace the beginning
but we can only guess

so what do we do?
to learn less or to learn more

its not what we learn
its what we see

knowledge is never ending
but wisdom puts an end to all things

....

2007-07-01T08:11:00.000-07:00

Its me again... Oh my freaking goodness... Its more than a month since i even smelled this page... Anyway.... where can i begin from.... June Holidays should be the best way to start... Went for a overseas CIP trip to Cambodia.... AWESOME is the best word i can find in the dictionary... seriously.... although it is a country that needs serious development, I really enjoyed myself... Living Life in a village.... No lights, no air con, no computer... NOTHING... but there were millions of stars that lit up the whole sky... AWWW. That was the best part of the trip... Standing in the middle of a field, with three other people who really rock.... gazing at the stars under the moonlight... (SIGHS)... SIMPLY AWESOME....Oh ya not forgetting the best part... I ate Fried Crickets..... I know it sounds utterly disgusting but it tasted awesome...

There... Holding in my hands is the biggest cricket i have ever seen.. It tasted really good, though..

This whole trip enriched me with a great experience... I learned how to live simply during those times.... Made quite alot of new friends who really touched me their friendship...

I also learnt that though we have alot of things... we are never satisfied... They nothing much yet they are satisfied.. Best piece of advice i heard from someone, "In the Comfort Zone, there is no Growth.... and in the Growth Zone, There is no Comfort." This was said by Reuben, the guy who gave up his comfort in Singapore who is now serving in Cambodia... SALUTES to him... Rock on Reuben...

Words cannot describe the experience i had... To jus say it in two words... Like i always say... "SIMPLY AWESOME....

dunno when i am gonna come back here but till I do.... Impossible is nothing.....

...

2007-05-23T04:49:00.000-07:00

Long time never come to this page. Really busy nowadays... Super Busy in school and sometimes I feel it is my own fault that I am so busy. So active in many stuff. Hip Hop performance was a disaster today but i still had fun. Seriously.. Although I forgot my last step.. Arrgh.. But I still think I did well. Thanks to my all my co-dancers.

I really feel like a coke of can. Alot of people are jus shaking me too much and I think I am like so gonna burst out any moment. I really put in a lot of effort but there were a few who didn;t appreciate it... Sad Story man. but no matter what happens, there is always my great sweet princess who never fail to cheer me up when i am down. Dunno what my life will be without her. Seriously, she is an awesome friend.

Yesterday had a lot of things to buy and without my another guy friend, i dunno how i would have managed it. He was really good and seriously helped me out. Love ya bro, God bless. People have really been a blessing in my life. They really rock my world.

Ok gotta go now... Need to but alot of stuff for fund raising tomorrow... damn tired ah...

Live Life!

2007-04-25T06:38:00.000-07:00

School was kind of fun today... Oh actually it was more like madness... I have a drama performance this coming Friday and we had our first rehearsal like today. It was really madness... Was in school up to 6.45PM... and i wonder why it has to rain everyday... Sian ah...

And the worst part of today was seeing my enlistment letter. I am suppose to report on 15th June 2007 for my full time national service.. I can't imagine myself doing NS so fast..LOL... CAn't got to school tmr.... Gotta settle my stuff A.S.A.P... Have to go to Immigration office also... To extend passport.. Gonna be a long day for me tmr man... GOtta rush back after all my tasks for lessons and DRama rehearsal.... CAn somebody accompany me...

Hip hop group has finally gained some recognition by the whole school. everyone knows that a Hip Hop group exists in MI. How EXCITING? Nows that gonna be another burden but it is my PASSSION. FOund some real nice people who shares the same passion as ME. Thanks DUDEZzzz.. Although Life can get stressed out real badly, there are real nice people who makes these stress go away.. REally important what kind of people you mix around with. They can break you or make you... ANyway, talked too much already.. time to go now.. Life is not easy.. Learn how to Live it.... Ayte....

Lol.....

2007-04-24T07:18:00.000-07:00

Tuesdays are the worst days in my opinion. School freaking ends at 6pm... Thats damn tiring.. I was seriously serioulsy stoning during GP lesson... gotta really buck up big time... ok time to sleep. Nitez...

2007-04-23T07:32:00.000-07:00

well.... This is me.... AFter church... Actually wanted to post it a long time ago.... This was on easter.....

Feeling Better!

2007-04-23T07:01:00.000-07:00

Quite a funny day i would say... Watching some earth week action in school.. wearing all kind of funny recycled material and walking around.....Hahas....was Quite a funny sight to see...Lol..

Class finally sat down together and discussed something after such a long time... Hopefully my class comes back together like how it was on the first month of school... SORRY if i did anything wrong to anyone... Jus felt saying this.....

GOtta improve on my standing broad jump.... The teacher in charge of my class for PE today was horrible. She refused to explain to me what my mistake was. HOW SICK? Nvm.. Anyway got a long day tmr... Lots of subjects tmr... Gotta mentally prepare myself....

;)

2007-04-22T03:19:00.000-07:00

Well, alot of things has happened during these few days. Good things and bad things. I realised that the class I am in is not as good as I thought. People i thought who were the best turned out to be the worst. I seriously thought that i could really relate well with those people but they are not what i expected them to be. Now i know why people say don't trust someone too much. It really hurts when they disappoint you. But the best part of these was i came to know what kind of true friends i have in class... People who care and rocks big time.. and oh yes... I must say...

I got the best speaker award for a inter-class debate competition. A competition that i wasn't even selected for. I was rejected by my teacher coz she thought that I was too aggressive and wasn't able to emphasize my point clearly. At first, it felt real bad but i took it as constructive criticism. I made up my mind that i will improve and make it to the debate team next year....but some things happened and i got into the team like damn last minute....and i won the best speaker... Felt so good to shut some people's mouth and see the look on their pathetic faces...

The worst news that i couldn;t bear was when I heard that my church has closed down. Very depressing.. Couldn't do anything... couldn't study, sleep, eat. I have been there all my life but Life is like that.. Never know what you gonna get.....

Still must do assignment la.. Sian eh... MI life is becoming more and more demanding....... Any advice anyone.....

Life Rocks..

2007-04-05T04:13:00.000-07:00

Today is my first day blogging. I din know what blogging was all about.. how pathetic... Anyway... I am a dreamer who is full of dreams... and mind you... i dun just live in dream land but i work hard to make all my dreams come true.... Once.. I thought I'll never make it life... Actually thats what everyone said... so stupid of me to listen to them .... but since 01st January 2006... i learn something new... Don't care what people say.. Just do it... Dream Big, achieve big.... this is all for now.... Will be back with more info about me. Take care people. Love you all... God bless